that this has nothing to do with you ,

it's personal , myself and i ,

we've got some straightenin' out to do ,

and i'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket ,

but i've got to get a move on with my life,

it's time to be a big girl now ,

AND BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY :)

sunday , 20.11.2011 .

pagi tadi bangun terus siap siap and pergi mid valley . then breakfast dekat mcD . round mid dengan adik and alissa . lama lama . penat kott . kesian alissa demam , tapi dia kuatkan diri . sanggup tu . haha . masuk MPH , beli buku untuk SPM :) . then call mama guna PUBLIC PHONE . mana phone aku ? haha . adalahh . masa dalam perjalanan balik tu , kitorang almost accident . tapi alhamdulillah tak jadi apa apa kat kitorang . ayah jib tergelak masa tu . then mama cakap macam ni ' awak boleh gelak ? kalau saya mati macam mana ?' . aku terkejut mama cakap macam tu . ya Allah , thank you for saving our life :') . ya Allah , kalau kemalangan tadi betul betul terjadi , aku nak biar aku orang first yang tak bernyawa kat situ . jangan libatkan orang yang aku sayang . sampai rumah , check phone ada 4 missed calls kot and 2 text messages . kenapa aku tinggalkan phone kat rumah ? kenapa aku tak bawak phone pegi mana mana macam korang ? sebab aku nak lupakan masalah aku . aku happy dapat lupakan masalah aku even sekejap . lepas tu aku mula jadi depressed . macam orang mati akal . i don't know why people keep blaming on me . god , why this happen to me ? i don't have strength to face all this . i need them . i need them , i need them :'( . and maybe i still need him . but i can't . tears , can you please go away and bring me back the laughs . guys , please understand me that i really need all of you and him .

that this has nothing to do with you ,

it's personal , myself and i ,

we've got some straightenin' out to do ,

and i'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket ,

but i've got to get a move on with my life,

it's time to be a big girl now ,

AND BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY :)

sunday , 20.11.2011 .

pagi tadi bangun terus siap siap and pergi mid valley . then breakfast dekat mcD . round mid dengan adik and alissa . lama lama . penat kott . kesian alissa demam , tapi dia kuatkan diri . sanggup tu . haha . masuk MPH , beli buku untuk SPM :) . then call mama guna PUBLIC PHONE . mana phone aku ? haha . adalahh . masa dalam perjalanan balik tu , kitorang almost accident . tapi alhamdulillah tak jadi apa apa kat kitorang . ayah jib tergelak masa tu . then mama cakap macam ni ' awak boleh gelak ? kalau saya mati macam mana ?' . aku terkejut mama cakap macam tu . ya Allah , thank you for saving our life :') . ya Allah , kalau kemalangan tadi betul betul terjadi , aku nak biar aku orang first yang tak bernyawa kat situ . jangan libatkan orang yang aku sayang . sampai rumah , check phone ada 4 missed calls kot and 2 text messages . kenapa aku tinggalkan phone kat rumah ? kenapa aku tak bawak phone pegi mana mana macam korang ? sebab aku nak lupakan masalah aku . aku happy dapat lupakan masalah aku even sekejap . lepas tu aku mula jadi depressed . macam orang mati akal . i don't know why people keep blaming on me . god , why this happen to me ? i don't have strength to face all this . i need them . i need them , i need them :'( . and maybe i still need him . but i can't . tears , can you please go away and bring me back the laughs . guys , please understand me that i really need all of you and him .